Lets try this again

Here is a slightly more optimistic follow up to my previous blog entry.

If my previous blog is anything, it is an example of what SOME days are like for me. Every day of the week is different.

I just want people to know that I am not in a constant state of depression. The fact of the matter is that some days are good and others are bad. Today was one of those days where I felt that I needed to take a step back and understand everything. I'm not saying I've come to terms with what's happened to me. I'm just saying that I have a lot more to be thankful for. I bought a new car, I received a nice raise at work, and I played in a music festival with my buddy's band last weekend. Amongst all this I still have loving friends and family. I know I stated in my previous post that I don't have a lot of people to talk to sometimes and that's true as well. Some days I'm simply alone with my thoughts. But it's in hard times that the people who truly care about you step up, and many have and I am forever thankful for the support you all have given me.

Lets see what tomorrow brings

Up and Down

It's been several weeks since Jamie left me. It's been the wildest emotional ride I've ever been on. For the most part I'm keeping my feelings in check, but other times it's too hard.

I just can't believe what's happening sometimes. Jamie and I had and honest to goodness relationship. We shared the good and the bad with each other because we knew we could. We truly understood the other's feelings. I could see she loved me, just be the way she would look at me.

I also understand she's in a very stressful situation right now, but I wanted to be the one to help her through it. I was going to be the person she could talk to when feeling down, cry with when feeling sad, and hug and kiss when she felt she needed someone close by.

I'm sorry about this post. I don't have too many people to talk to sometimes, so writing this helps me.

Goodbye... For now.

I woke up this morning feeling so strange. It was snowing out my window, only one day after we had a high of 80 degrees.

Jamie left me this weekend. I've been talking to a lot of people but I also feel that writing this blog might be therapeutic. I miss her, I miss her so much. My heart feels like it was ripped from me and taken to Las Vegas. I love her more than anyone on earth, and it's the worst feeling in the world knowing that person doesn't love you back. It feels like a burning hole in my chest that I can't put out.

I can't stop crying. Just yesterday I couldn't even walk down the stairs without stopping half way, sitting down, and sobbing. What do I do? 

Even recently we felt so close. On our vacation we visited San Diego and talked about living there. That was only two weeks ago.

As I'm writing this, the first earthquake I have ever felt in my life has just shaken the entire house violently...

It's hard for me to write this. Especially since my blog demographic is mostly her friends and family. However, this might help close things with all of you. Just know that I consider you all great friends of mine. 

I will love Jamie forever. All I can do is hope that she remembers what our relationship meant to both of our lives, and what it could've been.

Goodbye... For now. 

Things have been going well the past couple of weeks. Jamie and I went on a lovely vacation to San Diego and saw our friend April. Then we shot over to Tucson and saw the old gang.


The sad truth is, if you're going on a vacation to relax, visiting your family is the last thing you should do. Don't get me wrong. I had a great time, but we were on a very tight schedule in Tucson. Where as in San Diego, Jamie and I would just roll out of bed and head over to the beach.

In the end, the real idea was to get away from work and spend time with Jamie before she went back to Vegas. So MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!!! In fact, that mission was so accomplished that we even went to the mission's mom's house and slapped her in the face.


There I go again with my nonsensical rants...sorry.

BYE BYE BYE

It's time to say goodbye to our lovely little friends over at KREN. On Tuesday Pappas Telecasting pulled the plug on it's Reno CW affiliate and I can't imagine why.

I mean sure their anchors and reporters didn't know how to read or write, let alone speak without a condescending tone. And you could not watch their newscast without seeing a technical glitch every few minutes, giving you the feeling you could've found equal or better quality on public access... and sure, every time after I've sat through a whole show I'd look down and notice that I've clutched the arms of my recliner so tight that they will forever hold the impressions of my fingernails...

seriously they will be missed...

So guess who's the only HD station in Reno/Sparks?

And what does that mean?

A: JACK SHIT!!!!!

Hi

ffffwooo!!!

I did it!!

I went to the open mic night and it was great. I messed up a little but I think people really liked my set. I'm going to do it again sometime and I think I'm not going to be as nervous next time.

This is a maybe...

I'm thinking about doing an "open mic night" on Friday.

I'm under prepared and I don't have that much time to practice.

Should I do it?

STACEY IS DA WINA!!!!

For once Ben didn't guess it. Mark this day down in history people. It's probably because he didn't play.

Well done Stacey...

GUESSTASKICLE!!!!!

Such little hands.

Lets see if this sweater vest gives it away.

One Proud Wildcat

ARIZONA 34

#2)OREGON 24

Need I say more.

Mr. Pitt it is!!

You guys are too good.

Ford's Special Little Art Gallery Part II

"SCRIBBLE"


"PARIS"


"ARORA"

Take This Bitches!!!!

If that was too easy try this one FOOs

boo

Well Anne. You're the only one that played and you got it right. It's too bad you couldn't split the yucky sock with anyone. I'd better spice this game up a little.

IT!.........IS!........THE!.........GUESS!..........GAME!

This one is either really easy or really hard. I can tell but I'm sure you can.



The winner gets a sock puppet filled with some yucky stuff.

EEEK!

New celebrity coming soon bitches!!!!

ME AM SLEEP TIME

It's Monday and I just worked a 15 hour shift. I feel like this...

AND NOW... SOME STUFF

- I think They Might Be Giants are the greatest thing since sliced bread

- I realized the other day that I fantasize about things that almost everyone has, like regular work hours and time off.

- Corned beef is just dandy

- I have a beard now

- I wish I had more time to write music because I always feel a great song coming on but I don't have time to make it happen... oh well

- Current favorite line in a song "Bumpin' my pirate hump. Rockin' my peg leg stump."

- My Kitty is damn cute

- The Executive Producer at my station got fired the other day, but that's ok because I didn't like him very much

- Sliced bread is the greatest thing since They Might Be Giants


Bye Bye Bye Bye! Bye!